Restless

 I have come to total exhaustion of my body. I don't act like a person who has cancer. I keep up my pace and keep busy, especially with the new baby. Managing two jobs, training, a baby, husband, house chores, doctor appointments and chemo.
 My body has completely crashed in the past two nights. The worse part is not being able to get up and get Alejandra when she wakes up in the middle of the night. 7 months of chemo has finally beat me to the ground were I can t say no. I need rest.

Thank you for being part of my Journey, God Bless. Yvette Norris

The masterpiece you can't see

      At bible study we read this book called “what if” by author Mark Batterson.  In  the chapter  the Rosetta Stone , Mr. Bouchard an engineer working for the napoleon armed was in Egypt doing demolition on the rosetta wall when he discovered a black granite stone with ancient writings (the rosetta stone) and save it.  Then Champollion was the one whom worked to decipher the 3 ancient language writings.  This rosetta stone was the key to the Egyptians civilization without it, it would have been a mystery, wow. This is what chapter 8 in Roman comes about. To those who are called according to his purpose.  Roman 8:28
     Living is going through life lessons and those lessons are not always good happy ones. We will suffer in many ways from mentally emotional and physical. If we didn’t have the struggles in our lives we would have not been able to appreciate the good things that's s including all the little things we take for granted. Count your blessings , I know I do and being able to take a first breath every morning is a blessing. God didn’t say we will not have suffering.  He does promise that all of our suffering will be for good. Like Batterson mentioned, “ By not being able to see Gods masterpiece tends to freak us out because all we can see is odd shape pieces that don’t seem to fit together”. This is where our faith comes in to trust in God. When you don't the question rises “ Why do bad things happen to good people?” its all for a great purpose of good that we are not able to see at the time.
        I Worked as a receptionist at Mossy Nissan dealership when I was 19 years of age.  My desk faced these 3 big sky high windows where I will always look at the sky and ponder about whatever came to mind. It was a day I was reflecting back on all the struggles I had gone through growing up from relationships, family and money. That is when I realize that in life  you will SUFFER and STRUGGLE , you have to find the STRENGTH to SURVIVE from all SINs. My philosophy. .. If you seen me and my S tattoo on my back which is 5 S's in one with sin the middle, now you know what it stands for. Its not superwomen. lol I know that’s the first thing that comes to peoples minds. I remember when I got the tattoo done. I showed my dad and explained to him with excitement what it stand for . his response was "you couldn't have just wrote it on a piece of paper instead of tattooing it on?"   I said "nope" .. . It’s the first piece of the puzzle so I’m not quiet done with my tattoo. I tried to take the bad and turn it to something positive, I am only human so yes I will probably be upset at first till I collect myself and pray. I know I will not understand it but I’m ready to walk the path. I have Never been at such peace as I have been this year. I know you guys are saying “ WHAT”. . with all this going on in my life I have never felt so blessed and loved.. I love and thank God for a beautiful healthy baby girl that I was able to bring into this world with no complications,  experience this pregnancy that really made me comfortable with my body, weird huh . This cancer journey that I am able to experience and learn so much and hopefully help millions of people. Blessed to have such a great employer that has worked with me and my crazy schedule. I don’t know how we make it work but God has provided for us. How can I not trust in him, how can I not have faith in him when he has been by my side through all these year from the good to the bad always holding my hand even when I would refuse to obey. Thank you for all the blessings you have bestowed on us.
    Give thanks for all the blessings in your life. Even if we are not doing good we are still good and it will only get better so keep that in mind. All things happen for a reason, we may not comprehend but its part of his plan.